I can't even begin to describe all that I am feeling at this moment. For the past few years, I have talked about moving to Los Angeles. It was placed on my heart that going out West was where I needed to be. If I could, I would've moved years ago, but it wasn't the right time. But now it's time to embark on this journey.
Last year, I traveled to New York just about once a month to intern/assist other stylists in the industry. Traveling to New York provided me with great opportunities to work on teams for major editorials, commercial campaigns and fashion shows. By the end of last year, I had started to work more on my portfolio and I spent most of 2017 working on portfolio shoots; sharpening my skills as a stylist. I also continued to apply for jobs located in Los Angeles. My point: I didn't allow my desire to live out West stop me from pursing opportunities that were in front of me or stop me from working on my own portfolio.
If I'm honest, by February of this year, I was ready to throw in the towel. I was ready to risk it all and just move. I had spent more than a year applying for jobs in LA. Going out there with a job was the responsible thing to do. After stressing out for months about whether or not going to California was ever going to happen, by May, I had decided to let go. I found myself watching a lot of sermons online which allowed me to release the stress I put myself under worrying about something I felt God placed in my heart.
The moment I stopped stressing is the moment things began to fall into place. I have a job opportunity that will allow me to transition from the East coast to the West coast this September. In doing so, I will be able to continue to financially support myself while also pursing my dreams. I know many people see me on social media and think I work as a stylist full-time and I receive that to be my life one day. But I want to be honest; especially for those that find themselves in the same position.
While it may seem impossible, if God has placed a vision on your heart, do not give up! Continue to pursue your passion. If that means keeping a full-time job while doing so, that's ok. Instead of looking at your current situation as a burden, change your perspective and view it as a blessing. Your full-time job may be the resource you need to help you fund and support your dream (money/time off, etc).
And as much as we try, we will never understand God's timing. In the midst of getting the opportunity to relocate, I have also been dating a guy this year. So I found myself questioning these blessings. Why now God? Why me? Why couldn't I move years ago? Why couldn't I have had this vision right after college when I was in my twenties?
But He knows what He is doing. Everything will work out the way it is supposed to. The plan that is mapped out for each of us is different. The journey we take to reach our fullest potential and to live out our destiny is different. All we can do is take things one day at a time and do our part knowing that God will take care of the rest.
People have asked if my move to Los Angeles is temporary or permanent. My answer: I don't know. I know that my ultimate goal is to work as a full-time stylist. I want to have a career that doesn't feel like work. I want to live a life I don't need a vacation from. I know my mission is to inspire men and women to view fashion as a way to express themselves. How I get there is the true adventure! Maybe I will stay in Los Angeles permanently. Maybe I will be back on the East Coast in a few years.
For once, I don't have a vision beyond getting to Los Angeles and hustling to gain as much experience in the styling industry as I can. I am literally taking things one day at a time. And for once, that doesn't scare me.
"Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything."